Wind in the Willows

It really felt like winter today and it was colder because we were apart. The sky cried so hard that I presumed I had done something wrong. I thought about the world without you today, it seemed to match the clouds, but it felt like nothing. Sometimes it was like we were the same person, as if everything in the universe happened just so we would meet and fall in love. I never really think anyone knows this kind of feeling, only at times when I look at old people who still hold hands. They have grooves in their fingers where they fit together just right. They have spent so much time together that they don't know what it is to be without each other and when one dies, the other soon follows. Some think that's sad, but I think it's beautiful, like a flower without water, it can survive a while but it's never really itself again, then eventually it just shrivels up and turns to dust, becoming what it once was before it ever lived. When we said we would be together forever it never scared me, I was only afraid at the thought that life could have other plans. I knew though, that without you I would never want another.
I was in love with you long before this day, but I always remember it as a defining moment in my mind. My head rested on your chest, you stroked my hair as we listened to Iron and Wine ~ The Trapeze Swinger. You said you liked it because it went for almost 10 minutes, I said I liked it because it told a story. I realised how much I loved you, I cried. You didn't notice and I was happy about that, because if you had have asked me why I was crying I wouldn't have been able to speak. Maybe you did notice but just decided to say nothing. That memory is fresh in my mind like yesterdays kisses and although we have done so many things, that was my favourite.